I’m waving my white flag.

Is there a word in the dictionary that describes what it feels like to consistently miss the mark?

Is there a word that encapsulates the feeling of desperately trying not to lose yourself while also trying not to be too much for others?

Is there a word that sums up the feeling of realizing that to not cause problems you must be silent?

The only word that comes to mind,

is defeat.

I hope I find peace in accepting it.